When I was searching for permission on the internet to quit my job there wasn’t much inspiration. There’s plenty of stories but they were from people who seemed to have back up plans or were trying to sell you some kind of dream. It appeared that quitting your 9-5 job for seemingly nothing was as popular as never moving out of your parents home.
I didn’t make a 6 digit income but $55,000 a year to deliver parcels was a decent gig especially for someone with no real employable skills. Most people in my position never leave but I guess I’m not like most people. The job I had was the ideal job that I thought I always wanted which proved to me that I need to live differently than your standard North American life because if I can’t be content doing this then this particular journey is over. The compensation for my work was good on paper but the catch was that you had to trade most of your life for it without any significant break in between.
If you are thinking about quitting a decent job you will over-think things unless if you lack the ability to think. I had been planning my escape for a while but I chickened out so many times because the primitive wiring kicks in when you get to the edge of the cliff. Of course, once I walk away from the danger I’m a tough guy again. The fear erases all the rational thoughts but it always came back to the same question. Can I accept staying at this job forever? My answer was no because I think I have the option and I don’t believe a person in my situation should be living life in this manner.
One of the most difficult obstacles to quitting my job was the fear of going through the process. Having to have that conversation with my manager and then the bombardment of questions from coworkers for 2 weeks was a little bit frightening to me. If there was just a quit button I could press at home I would have been done much sooner.
When people found out it was my last day there was some shock. People had me figured as a ‘lifer.’ Not everyone is going to be completely honest about their opinion once they know you have already made your decision. I’ll tell you what I think the four types of opinions were.
- “Good for you.” Some people understood and thought it was cool.
- “Hmmm…okay.” Not something they would recommend but they respect your decision.
- You are stupid.
- You are really fucking stupid.
One coworker that I hardly ever spoke with came up to me to ask me about it all.
No other job?
Nope. You like that, don’t you?
She walked away with a smile and looked impressed. I think I made her horny.
The thoughts went around my mind on how I could possibly find ways to be content with keeping my job but I realized it would just be a way of making it easier to do something that I don’t want to do like putting ketchup on dog shit before you eat it. I think I’ll hold off on the dog shit altogether until it becomes necessary. To continue doing a job that you don’t really want to do requires a belief that you have to.
I don’t have any grandiose plans of getting a better job. My goal is to find a way of living that is more suited for myself and I am willing to suffer for my beliefs. I don’t believe the route that provides the most financial and social comfort is the best option for everybody. I don’t want my life to be absolutely dictated by numbers and a set of unwritten rules propagated by people who don’t care about me or even know me. I wrote abundantly on my disgust towards the working stiff life and society in general. To have beliefs but to not follow them for the exchange of comfort and security is cowardly.
It’s only been a few days but it hasn’t really sunk in yet that I quit this job. I don’t know how it feels to be released from prison but I think the feeling of leaving the company property for the last time after 7 years is similar.
So what am I going to do then? Take it easy for a bit. I plan to spend a lot of my time volunteering. Maybe get a dog. Work part-time or the odd job. Travelling is an option as well so if any of you want to provide some hospitality, let me know. But I guess a big part of the plan is, we’ll see what happens.