When given the time to do nothing, often we do nothing. If you’re doing nothing it can often mean you’re thinking. For whatever reason the unpleasant thoughts often overshadow the joyful ones. We’re constantly thinking about how to improve our lives and we worry about how our lives might get worse in some way or another. The good thoughts are like hitchhikers…they pop up here and there but they don’t get picked up for the long ride. Then again, this could just be how my brain operates but most people don’t pick up hitchhikers.
On paper and in our heads, anything that saves us time and energy is what we want. I was without a car today because I brought it to the auto mechanics. I woke up earlier because I had to walk to work and I had to walk home too in blazing hot weather. On my way home I stopped off at Walmart with all the other low class citizens and then at Wendy’s after for a burger(ice water, no fries). By the time I got home it was 7pm. I took a shower, cooled off, changed into some dry underwear and walked to the mechanics to pick up my car. $609..yay. Home again and it’s 9:30pm. The day is basically done now.
If my days were like this every day, I don’t know if I’d have much time to dwell on my thoughts. Always being on the go and then being exhausted at the end of the day makes you want to leave your brain on standby mode. It wasn’t a hard day just a busy one. Another positive is that it kept me from drinking wine. Of course, I can find ways to keep myself busy and have my days always be like this one but I would feel like a fool to do so. My thoughts would gravitate to the thought of, I could be doing nothing right now.
Maybe too much time is poison for one’s life. It’s funny that what we think we want is often what ends up hurting us. I’m sure there’s a Buddhist proverb that supports this.