I went into my work vehicle today and the mechanic was fixing something inside.
Him: “How’s it going?
Me: “I’d rather be home or anywhere else really.”
Him: “Ya but you wouldn’t get paid.”
Me: “Ya I know. I’m more than willing to make that sacrifice.”
Him: “Doesn’t sound like you have many bills to pay for.”
Anytime I have these kind of conversations I think about what the other person’s life must be like and I think about how come I don’t feel the same way. Ya the answer is obvious. He’s got kids and the all the rest. I’m the only kid I have to take care of. Then I started to wonder if I took on some more bills if it would make me feel better about working. Maybe but the idea of it would be very similar to jumping off a cliff to see if the rush would be worth it.
That is the trap that they refer to when they say “growing up is a trap.” Once you make that decision to pay for a mortgage, buy a new car or have kids you pretty much look in one direction which is where ever there is more money. If the mechanic misses a day of work without pay he thinks about how many jugs of milk he could have bought and wishes he could be working instead. If I miss a day of work I think about how many bottles of wine I could have bought but that thought fades away within seconds and I think about how glad I am to not be working and I go ahead and buy the wine anyway. I’d even buy the mechanic a jug of milk just to show him how much I don’t give a shit.
I can sort of see how the trap is set up. It’s laid out for everyone and most people walk into it without much resistance. The trap is like the devil. It will throw out temptations everywhere and wait for you to be impatient, insecure, excited, depressed, bored or something else that makes humans weak. The idea is that you get a job and then attain things along the way. This is what makes this job worthwhile. If you disrupt the flow and stop wanting to attain things then that’s when everything gets a little messed up. The idea is that sooner or later they will get you and if they don’t they will try to make your life a miserable existence.
So I guess growing up is a trap but for many they’d rather be trapped than lost. I don’t blame them. Being lost in life brings out the same fear in people as being lost in the woods at night.