I’ll admit I have believed in happiness for 98% of my life. The last 6 months or less being the 2%. My belief in happiness was similar to that of someone who believes in Jesus. You believe it exists but have never seen it and neither has anyone else you know of. However, you’ve seen it in movies and people always preach that you can find it. No matter how many years go by without real evidence you just keep on believing.
I’m not so sure anymore. Well, I think I am sure. I don’t think it exists. Not the everlasting kind that we’re all looking for and for sure not for most of us. Definitely there’s spurts of happiness here and there but that’s just the same as getting high or drunk. We’re looking for one long semi euphoric rush that never meets a come down.
If you think about it, “happiness” is just a word to describe a feeling. There was once a time that no such word existed. Maybe the idea of being happy only existed when the word was invented. Happiness could just be a fairy tale.
Telling someone happiness does not exist is like telling a 5 year old, Santa Claus doesn’t exist or a die hard Christian that Jesus does not exist. They won’t believe it and won’t even entertain the idea. Who wants to believe the one thing that everyone is striving for does not exist?
The way I see it is, happiness is like the dangling carrot. We’re designed to desire it and chase it but not have it for very long if at all. You may have heard before that we were all meant to be happy. No we weren’t. We were all meant to ensure the survival of our species and to continually figure out ways to enhance it. Since when did anyone design anything for the sole purpose of someone else’s happiness? The universe does not give a shit about your happiness. It’s just a lure to get you to reproduce, continue eating and to search for a more comfortable habitat.
We want to believe in happiness because we spend so much of our lives not being happy and struggling for some kind of peace. We want to think there is a light at the end of the tunnel that is worth fighting for. Perhaps we’re not miserable but we’re not usually flying high and that’s where we’d rather be. That’s why we snort, drink, rectally induce and swallow. But that’s not real happiness, right? It’s as real as any other happiness..short and depressing after.
Why is it happiness is different for everyone and everywhere? Howcome it’s not like 2 + 2 = 4? You see some of these 3rd world inhabitants on TV saying how happy they are even though they work so hard for barely enough to eat and they sleep on dirt. Are they telling the truth? Were they just having a good day? I don’t know. Possibly they feel happy because they get the high feeling more easily. Daddy brings home an apple for 4 of them to share and they go bonkers.
The whole happiness idea is more of a developed nation thing. When it’s so easy to survive we get bored and then we get unhappy because there’s so much time on our hands. If surviving is so easy then what? How about finding happiness!
Happiness is this memory and dream that we chase. Our monkey brains are designed to go after these things that we think will make us happy. When you think back on the times you were happy, you want to go back to those times. You want to recreate them for your future. You watch movies and see these people so damn happy and you’re convinced if you lived a life closer to theirs you would be happy too.
I think the happiness that people chase comes in the form of envy and acceptance. You try to be the best you can be in your community. Trying to be happy is really just trying to enhance your community and yourself. The feeling of envy and admiration from your community is the happiness people are chasing. I don’t think you can be “happy” by doing nothing.
The most unhappiest thing one can do is chase something that doesn’t exist and fail miserably. Believing that there is possibly no such thing as happiness provides me with a sense of relief. Screw you nature, I’m not falling for your dirty trick any longer. I must sound like such a miserable SOB. Hahaha.
I do believe though there are some lucky ones out there that live a mostly happy life. I sort of believe this because there’s people out there who are always depressed no matter what so isn’t it possible there’s some out there who are almost always happy? Like a lean mean serotonin machine? Who knows. The thing about happiness is that just like religion, science cannot disprove it. As long as it cannot be disproven people will always believe in it.
Although I don’t really believe in happiness like I did before, I will welcome it anytime and entertain the possibility because I can’t help myself. Just like when powdered, pilled or liquid happiness comes around, I just say yes.
Just wanted to say that I don’t rectally induce anything but if you do it is ok. It gets to the bloodstream faster that way.