Being somewhat of a loner and not having television has caused some changes in my life. I believe in my prior life when I had a circle of people I was sick and could not get well cause I kept going out in the cold and rain. It made me weak and comfortably miserable.
Television screwed with my mind. It gave me a false impression of how my life was suppose to be and my friends were the vehicle that carried those thoughts to my disappointment. It was all in my head, although my head had some help from dreams portrayed through the tube and the superficial force of society.
What I am about to say is going to sound odd but my goal is to be like high on ecstasy without ingesting it. I suppose it’s the Buddhist equivalent of nirvana. These Buddhist teachings are starting to make sense to me and lately I’ve been mindful of them and conscious of them when my mind starts to go back to it’s egotistical ways.
I have also been studying the Christian religion and the bible which is a great book to live by with it’s many great stories. Hopefully all this is not just a phase but a continuation of spiritual growth and happiness. One thing I have always been happy about is that I’ve always been able to change for the better and the future always brought me a life I never thought I would engage in and be thankful for. For me, this tells me there’s going to be a surprising light at the end of many tunnels before this life is over.
